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HEY! HEY! HEY! [22 Mar 2005|08:34pm]
[ mood | crazy ]




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[24 Feb 2005|01:54pm]
[ mood | happy ]

How is everyone?

I am good...nothing too new, in the livejournal world...
I'm still confused and lost...like always...
but i guess that is the fun about it...
you never know what new chapters gonna be turning in the book.
I dyed my hair! and is still in the process of cutting it!
Im so slow...but the end result will be the 'sex'
I'm in one of those moods to jump and dance in the middle of the street while its pouring rain!

I need a life!

*no reaction that could change my mind*

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I'm never on... [10 Feb 2005|02:25pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

oh my how is everyone?
I LOVE YOU...i just love myspace more...j.k!
*turn meit on*

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Carry a knife. [18 Nov 2004|04:54pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Hello friends and lovers,

Ive been so busy latley, i havent gotten to write a new entry...i bet you guys all miss me badly...haha...well lets see schools the same...i hate it and i wish i could fucking graduate or get home studies....umm family sucks...i still not sure if im going to live with my mother in texas...i dont know if i could stand her...Um Twsited chirstmas is comming up and im gonna be able to see THE USED My favortie band ever!! I love jeph fucking howard eeee im so fucking excited it will be my 8000 time seeing them fuck ...ahh and i get to see MCR and TBS...lmao your dumb if you dont know what that is...umm lets see what else is new...oohh i think i talked my dad into getting me get my lip pierced hopefully...he always takes back things...hmm who knows but im about to go get ice cream with kevin and emily...♥


*id like to run away*

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Not a good fucking day [04 Nov 2004|08:30pm]
[ mood | sad ]

i want to scream, im so infurated....ugh i dont even know if thats a word, i don't know what im doing here... im thinking of moving to texas...=[ someone help me and convience me to staying please cus it seems like no one really has a problem with me going...=[

* love is not like anything its so hard to get over it*

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Hey Friends...umm yea hey! [01 Nov 2004|07:53pm]
[ mood | calm ]


Well today i went to school- gawd i cant wait till winter break- and anyways i felt happier today...but i feel empty sometimes...i dunno i just want my friends to know i love them all very much...umm yea well today me and my jessica went to cold stone and jamba juice and got some drinks then came back to my how and played pool\\\\i totally killed her//// lmao its okay cus i still love her! haha but yea that about all i did...<33333 and on halloween i hung out with julia and ashley and rich and jarrett and shane and jessica we watched scary movies and ate lots of candy...but yea we had fun loving eachother all night..haha anyways...yea ill update more i promise!<33333


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again i cry...but this is how i feel...i took my time [30 Oct 2004|02:18pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

three sleepless nights
this isn't how it's supposed to be

you're so good at taking your time to give back to me

I will wait for you forever
if you would just ask me

it doesn't feel right
holding [someone else's] hand

together on phone lines
and living at two opposite ends

it [scares me] to think that you could find takers
other than me and [better than me]

I'm talking enough for both of us
when will you see it's not so easy for me

you careless and whispered... insulting and bruising

I thought that you said things were improving

---i guess they werent-----

I fall from your eyes. Your eyes I trusted. You said forever...

I never thought you could say these words
is this really happening...

don't say that we can still be friends

erase my name from this page
how can you take all these days


as I sit here waiting for you

I stay up nights

if you are still pretending this is what's right

walk away from me
this night is done

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[28 Oct 2004|12:51pm]
i havent been on here a while...sorry <3

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love is in the air [09 Oct 2004|08:43pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Hey guys
I havent updated in so long...but i am so happy...i feel like a different person...<3333 Im feel so good...i hope everyone else is good...today i went to apple hill justin...it was so fun and sweet...then we went to his house and just hung out...it was nice to relax with him, while he played gutiar for me <3 I met his family and stuff there real nice...and his dog is adorable ha ha..but yea...i feel so good lately...i wish i had been updating so i could give you all the detail but yea...anyways...<3 I love you all...<333

*are you bleeding yet?*

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[27 Sep 2004|08:34pm]
[ mood | crazy ]


Hmm well on staurdya i went to the five miuntre ride show...and yea..im in love with the bassist...he loves me too...ha ha..but anywas i ahd fun but also there was some drama..-ugh- its like to follow me...anyways today i went to get coffee with jessica then we played legos and it was very fun...and yea now im about to leave so yea...I love you all

*replace me with flower*


ahh the used cd comes out tommoroW!

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A letter to someone not so special... [26 Sep 2004|03:11pm]
[ mood | enraged ]

Some people just dont get that i dont want to fucking talk to them anymore...

-ugh- get over it you fucked up and i hate you now....so i hope you are happy with that cunt bitch...and stop calling me already...im over it..."love is not like anything especially a fucking knife"...-gah- you think that maybe ill fogvie you for all the fucked up careless acts you did...but now...i dont care, and you think that maybe will be happy again...well we wont...we never will...maybe in my head i thought we could...but we cant...you know why...cus i can never trust you...and you are the worst thing that ever happend to me...i deserve so much better...and all the thing i did to try to make it work...wasnt worth it...every little ounce pain should have never been brought on to me...so all i have to say now is...FUCK YOU!

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[24 Sep 2004|05:28pm]
If LJ Was a Bar by Karen_Walker
Dancing Badlyangerygumballs
Playing Poolashleybarela
Playing Dartspleaforpeacex
Singing Karaokesuicidexxxgirl
Got in with a Fake IDnightmareveela
Guy with a Mulletbitexmyxlips
Too Drunk to Standnaineh
Hitting on Everyone_bonor_
Hot Chickmadmax57
Quiz created with MemeGen!

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So deep that i didnt even scream fuck me! [24 Sep 2004|02:56pm]
[ mood | silly ]

Ello Fuckers♥

Hmm well one thing i have to say is fucking all thse people who are liars,cheaters and people who are in anyway discrminators...how the fuck are you gonna judge someone by what they wear or look...-ugh-...well lets see anyways yesterday...all i did was soak my head in the new used Cd and cry...and ummm hung out with emily and lisa...then at like 8 mikey came over and we talked outside in the fron till like 9:45...and yea i took a shower and slept....ugh then mike lied to me again and yea this weekned homecomming for her and rachele...i hope they have fun...faggit cunts!-sigh- hmm anyone want to take me to homecomming?!...lmao just kidding what a sill question to ask, im probley not even gonna go...ill end up getting sad and yea....fuck...well lets see i found out i cant see jeph for another 3 weeks and i fucking miss him, i hope everything okay...i just wish i could talk to him...hmm lets seee...school today was okay...after school CHRIS AND MIKEY picked me up i was so happy i jumped in joy! but i think were suppose to hang out more...and i might go to jessica later tonight so i g2g...il update more about this weekend...call me 4 plans!!...5 minuted ride suppose to be playing at the net and i might go..cus alot of pepole, are going...so yea...TTYL love ya lots!
*love is not like anything especially a fucking knife*

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Dont tell me what i already know... [22 Sep 2004|03:58pm]
[ mood | devious ]

Last name: Howard ♥
Last birthday celebrated: Well um i said happy birthday on the 21st to anthony
Last hair cut: like 4 days ago
Last pierce/tattoo: My ear...i think, too many to count
Last perfume worn: Love Spell
Last outfit: The used shirt and some empyre jeans
Last cry: 3 dyas ago
Last swear: yesterday
Last song listened: The get away- pretty girls make graves
Last watched TV show: Family guy
Last website: myspace
Last yell: At school
Last movie: Passion of christ
Last holiday: Easter?!!?!
Last online chat: Jessi and elania
Last missed call: vinny
Last received call: mike
Last dialled call: mike
Last Ims sent: to jessi
Last Ims received: jessi
Last bath:wayyyy to long ago
Last time involved in fist fighting:my ex..fucking cunt
Last clubbing place: The Underground.i guess -psh-
Last smile: In the Car with jessica
Last laughing hard: when me and john were making fun of niggerlanguage...friizzle nizzle
Last time that you fell sick:this morning
Last exercise: -humping motion-
Last time you had a crush(es):ummm i dunno
Last time you had your heart broken: um about 6 months ago
Last food eaten: pizza rolls
Last drink: water
Last things you bought: chips at school
Last CD bought: TBS
Last time you rented a VCD/DVD: like a week ago
Last DVD bought: Kill bill 2
Last photo taken for yourself: today
Last photo taken with other people:today
Last photo taken for other people:today
Last annoyance:my brother comming home


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Billy lost his shoes again [20 Sep 2004|09:22pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Hey kids
Hmm today was just another boring day...i really want coffee and yea i dont know...i just feel like i need some thing to keep me awake, but yea nothing much...umm this weekend i want to hang out with some friends...so is anyone up for anything?!

eee new news! i get see the used on oct 24 in Santa Cruz!!

♥! well im out...ttyl fellas
XoXo Genny

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My derelict heart... [19 Sep 2004|12:34pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I sit here in my rooms, while i listen to the rain beat down.
I watch the phone think that maybe yourll call..waitng for that sound.
I go throught the pictures of what use to be something...and i know its what got us here...maybe i shouldnt have ever tried to make it work...
Fuck and i think about it and i know your with her...and that i cry because i cant do anything about it... cus i know she means more then i ever did...you just use me for one thing anyways... you know ill give you everything...but you never wanted my heart anyways... but i still gave it to you...i gave you my eveything...i feel like i have been the only one holding on but what am i holding onto...because like you said...im nothing for you...and i keep hurting myself worst each minutes...and cant help it...cus its the only thing keep me here...and so ill stay here and know youll never call me... but ill keep my chin up and feel the tears run down just to have a thought that maybe someday, someday youll change...change back to the person who loved me and the person who'd id be happy to give anything to...why cant i just be happy with out you...and i just wish that you wanted me just as half as much as i wanted you.

<x3 *you never relize how much you love someone untill you loose them* i hate feeling like im nothing...but i know im not... <x3 -Genn

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its all the good that wont come out of them... [18 Sep 2004|01:16pm]
[ mood | numb ]

Ugh...Today another slow fucking day...man i hate being bored...i think its one of the worst feeling in the world...well tonight [The Degenerates] Show and im siked! Alot of people are gonna be going...and yea...i really need to ut my hair...its getting wayyyy to long...and annoying im probely gonna finally cut and re-dye it this weekend..but hey i say that every weekend and i get to lazy to actually do it so ya...anyways...yea i guess things are okay, i mean boys suck but hey i learned to live with it...and yea i really miss a couple of people that i havent spoke to in a while and yea i think about them so much...i just hope there doing good...<3
hmm well ya i think im gonna go lay down and watch my celing turn and change colors while i trip out on acid and pretty girls make graves...then shout up some crank...sounds good...ha ha...! I love you guys peace out!


*if you hate your friends your not alone*

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nothing else but lies... [16 Sep 2004|08:39pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

today was hell day...that all i have to say

i love you all<3
* love means nothing*

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..omfg! [14 Sep 2004|05:20pm]
[ mood | crying ]

omfg...my fish just died...he was suppose to die with me...but he was depressed like me maybe its a sign im suppose to die too!

emofish...i love you..

:( *sad and lonely* Genny

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Love sucks... [14 Sep 2004|04:53pm]
[ mood | depressed ]


omfg....i hella hate everything...i hate everyone...i swear everyone loves to be mean to me...in life im not suppose to be happy...its not ever suppose be happy...nothing is every gonna be right...im so stupid and i hate everything about me...im never good enough... and i will never be good enough for anyone...and im nothing...and i dont know why my friends are my friends. cus im nothing...and i shouldnt be loved, because i cant even love myself...i feel like im in a world of non sense and im just a waste of nothing...that the world has no meaning...live has no meaning...really think about life...what is it...why are we here...no one REALLY knows...and we never fucking will...fuck...cant anyone just make me happy...i mean i do know my friends make me happy and i love you...jessica and erica you mean the fucking world to me....but wtf is my problem...mike happend to show up at my house....and yea rachele called and he lied to her saying he wasnt at my house and blah balh!...and fuck he was and he hella freakin lied and wouldnt call her and there so much to this story i cant explain...and if you really want to know then call me or IM me...if you care please do...cus yea...fuck...:(...i want to end my life...no kidding...if i cant be happy...why am i here...oh and people dont be scared that im saying this...im to much of a pussy to kill myself...</3 -Genny *would i lie to you...would i die for you*

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